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Timeline

Youth 

  1. Violated as young boy( 3 or 4y.o.) by by older boys at church family house
  2. Mom was overprotective of me because of the abuse incident
  3. My mom had a traumatic miscarriage due to a medical mistake and suffered from depression from that issue
  4. Mom was a hoarder*, could not have people over to play
  5. * she didn't keep up the house for a while and then it got hard to manage...
  6. Only child
  7. Few friends growing up
  8. Not popular at school.
  9. Mom did not have a vehicle so limited extracurricular activities (no soccer, sports, clubs etc)
  10. I did tae kwon do a few times but not in a row
  11. I did swimming as a youth but parents did not have funds to continue
  12. No vehicle made it difficult to get to friend's houses that lived farther away.
  13. Because my mom's hoarding disorder we could not have friends over
  14. Some of the neighborhood friends were a few years younger I was 12 and my best friend was 8 at the time
  15. Masterbated 1st time about age 12 or 13 in bathroom, some underwear model in a shopping catalog
  16. Exiting the bathroom, I felt something drop on the back of my neck. I was startled and I'm afraid of spiders and thought it was a spider I smacked whatever it was on the back of my neck and it turned out to be a bee that stung me on my finger
  17. I noticed I got a wart on that finger* and it's currently on my right middle finger right now
  18. * after repenting in 2017 after being convicted I prayed and I felt warmth which could have been the Holy Spirit, and my wart was gone...
  19. However I tried to minister to somebody who is fornicating at that time and I told him there are ways to deal with your urges even masturbation is better than fornication and unfortunately that opened the door like saying it was okay and I felt pretty shortly after that I think the work changed hands and fingers which doesn't really make sense but the wort is caused by a virus so it's possible

  21. A
  22. addicted to underage pron as teenager
  23. Repented at church camp when 17
  24. Questioned by fbi at 18 about something that happened when I was 16

  26. A
  27. Fornication with first gf age 19-21
  28. Pron use again after stressed / depressed
  29. Q
  30. Arrested age 21 for grand theft auto
  31. Q
  32. Arrested 6 months later for federal offense. Possession of cp (june 2009)
  33. A
  34. On house arrest/  bail...went to jail May 2012

  36. Met a messianic Chrisitan counseor, ... understood love of God 10-4-2015


  39. Sentenced nov 2015
  40. Q
  41. Released from prison 2016
  42. Q
  43. Read bible and prayed. Went to grandfather's church down the street
  44. Grandparents passed away dec2016 / jan2017

  46. A
  47. 07/2018 Talked with messianic believer " matthew meyer " ... he had testimonies like the book of acts..
  48.  He invited me to be his disciple /(travel and learn) ... but I told him and he didnt know the legal ramifications. He took his website down some time later

  50. Mom diagnosed with cancer 08/2018
  51. A
  52. Q

  54. Mastrbation  cycle began again 2019
  55. Aq
  56. A
  57. A
  58. Dated callie (wheelchair + ms) 12-2019 until 02/2020
  59. !

  61. Met Darrin june 2020
  62. Met homeless Paul July 2020
  63. A
  64. A
  65. A

  67. Mom passed october 2020
  68. A

  70. Q
  71. Moved to christian home 06/2021


  74. Moved to apt 01/2022

  76. moved back to Christian home 01/2023














  1. Q
  2. A

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