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Timeline Youth  Violated as young boy( 3 or 4y.o.) by by older boys at church family house Mom was overprotective of me because of the abuse incident My mom had a traumatic miscarriage due to a medical mistake and suffered from depression from that issue Mom was a hoarder*, could not have people over to play * she didn't keep up the house for a while and then it got hard to manage... Only child Few friends growing up Not popular at school. Mom did not have a vehicle so limited extracurricular activities (no soccer, sports, clubs etc) I did tae kwon do a few times but not in a row I did swimming as a youth but parents did not have funds to continue No vehicle made it difficult to get to friend's houses that lived farther away. Because my mom's hoarding disorder we could not have friends over Some of the neighborhood friends were a few years younger I was 12 and my best friend was 8 at the time Masterbated 1st time about age 12 or 13 in bathroom, some underwear model in a sho
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Incomplete in Love

 This is an incomplete post  some mild clarification edits. Stream of consciousness through a faulty voice transcription app...  Direction--. So, if you believe love,  Will fix most things right?  Like enough love ( will fix most problems )  or  psychologically, that kind of thing. (Enough love will fix mental disorders, emotional struggles and interpersonal issues) Love plus a retraining (of the person's mind and behavior)  then the god-level is God's love plus retraining... i.e. sanctification.  For the purpose of:  Reordering  redirecting,  renewing  making a new life out of new thoughts,  A new reality,  new habits, that kind of thing.  And then the result is established.  It is Becomes the new state of being ... The New Normal.  So what we if we believed that love- God's love- would change everything?  Then, how would that in turn affect our life?  We would give our time to it (God's love, use our time seeking more of that) and attention and devotion, right? (Refoc
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Truth of grace

  My meditation for today It's good that the heart be established with Grace Hebrews 13:9 Guard your heart What precedes forth from the heart defiles a man The just shall live by faith So the new sacrifice becomes praise and thanksgiving the will of God that we be thankful in all things If we have received his forgiveness and New Life and the Holy Spirit Having been forgiven all things can we forgive the past putting our focus and attention on the glory of God the Risen Christ Can't his goodness what are soul with life and pure light a newfound Delight for what is right Can we be truly forgiven can we rest in that Grayson that goodness can we be thankful and rejoice eternally praising him Can we forgive the people from our past as a test of the genuineness of our faith out of love and respect for God first loved us and then can we live being freed from that passed being healed and start a new life with God a greater life with God a true life with God Yes only of the new birth O
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End of the World

This is our future "bitcoin" one world order stuff...  https://en.zion.city/ Be watchful unto prayer and redeem the time! Blessings in Christ! p.s. basically, technology (silicon valley) is anti-christ and attempting to give humanity power (tower of babel to false heaven) and through technology to advance medicine. Humanity to live longer (forever) = purpose of medicine (medi-sin) and technology provides (V/R) (A/R) into an alternative reality (because people want to escape and not humble themselves and to go to God for TRUE Reality and restoration of this reality) They will sell an alternative "matrix" cyber existence and people will buy into that plan of a man (corporations and beast(economic) kingdoms) instead of God's man and plan. alternatively, God could send meteors, destroy satellites and the internet structures SOLAR FLARE EMP and humanity enters some stone age, demonic (think dark ages) game of thrones, throwback stuff (where revelati
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Apologetics - imminent frame - what works - way forward

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